These
past couple of weeks has been one of the best but also the hardest weeks on
this trip. The best part was when I got the privilege of going home for week
but that was because I was in one of my best friends wedding as a bridesmaid
and I went to Canada with my family. When I got to the hotel, the first thing I
noticed was that the room was bigger than the house that I live in but it was
an amazing week that I got to spend with my family. The week went by too fast. I
wish I got to see more people that I know and love but I know God has a purpose
for me being here.
When
I got back to Mexico from being home, it was full of many ups and downs. I
could not believe I could be happy one day and sad the next. So many emotions
and I felt as if I was on a rollercoaster. There were things that I had no
control over and was frustrated at a situation that I could not change. It was
so hard not to be bitter or to have anger. I do not wish to go into details
because that would be gossiping but I can say that it was hard. I wanted to
quit and just go home to where it is comfortable. I wanted to be with my family
at that moment and my friends back at home. I feel as though when you are
comfortable, you are not growing because life is full of change and with
change, there is growth. It was
then that the Lord gave me two visualizations for my life that I thought I
would share.
The
first was a roller coaster. Roller coasters can be either fun or frightening but
either way they have a beginning and an end. You step onto that rollercoaster
knowing for certain that you are strapped in and safe. Even though it can be
scarier for some people, you are still safe strapped into the seat. That is
like the protection that the Lord gives. I am sitting in this chair called
faith, knowing that I am protected by a God that loves me and even though I go
up, down and upside down sometimes, I know and trust in Him that I am safe. It
is all about the perception and attitude of this ride that you are about to
endure that can make the ride seem worth it.
As
the roller coaster starts to move and the anticipation is ready, you go all the
way to the top knowing you are going to go down. If you are not ready, then when you are going down is going
to hit you by surprise and you will just want the ride to end. You will also
wish that you would have never stepped onto the ride as well and miss out on
the opportunity to grow and keep going even though it is hard.
If
you have your eyes closed during the whole ride or even part of the ride, then
you will not see what is coming ahead. Like this, you will miss what God has
for you in this rollercoaster of life if you are not paying close attention. There
will be many ups and downs but it's knowing that you are safe and strapped in
during the whole entire ride that gives can give you peace about the ride. I
find that there is nothing to worry about when I step into the rollercoaster of
life because Jesus is always with me. He is protecting me during the entire
ride and will bring me to the finish line.
The
second was being on empty. It was when I had to get gas here in Mexico and I
waited until it got empty to fill of course. The light was on and I was in
desperate need of gas. As I pulled into the gas station, the workers were on
strike and I was not able to get gas. I prayed to God so that I could make it
by morning and faith that everything was going to be good until then. But why
did I wait until I was empty in order for God to intervene? Why did I have to
wait until I was low in order for God to fill me up? Do I only come to Him when
I am in need of something? God has been there during the whole time, whether
the gas was full or empty but I only come to Him when it is empty. Do I only praise Him when things are
going well and ask God for my needs when I am on empty? It has never failed me
when I am at filled or when I am running on empty for He always provides for
the needs but help me Lord not to come to you only when I need you. The Lord is
always with me so why not praise and pray to God always?
This
summer is definitely stretching my faith. Trusting in Him always at all times
is what the Lord is speaking to me and I thought I would share. I love being
here and serving but it is hard at times. Right now I am running low of
finances and in need of it but I know and have faith that God will provide. If
you find it in your heart to give just let me know. This type of faith scares
me sometimes because I have to fully rely on God and not on myself or anyone
else. I know that my faith will build this summer and that it will be hard but I
can’t wait to see how God will reveal Himself to me.
Dios te bendiga!
